Thursday, March 25, 2010


so every yoga / meditation class i have attended, the one objective that the trainer has told us is to be more aware. I have always wondered what being more aware is...hearing that butterfly in the traffic, knowing that a speed breaker is coming.
i am the passive kinds, i like to be in a trance always, not spaced out mind you, but basically i love to be within my own thoughts. and the best example of this is when i am driving, i always have those sound blocking earphones in my ears, am mostly wearing dark glasses, and so manage to block the world out. and am mostly thinking of what i am thinking. i am mostly not paying attention to the road, but always have a sense of the traffic or where i have to go, but am never never paying attention to the road.
but then that is not awareness. or is it?
it took, of all people, to make me realize what that is.
awareness is knowing, quiet implicitly what is going on around you, and maybe even the reason behind it. To be knowing the not so obvious.
to know that you are in a sulky mood, and to know know why, maybe.
to know that the uncle listening to the group leader doesn't know the language.
and yes, to also spot that kite carrying a long piece of cable in its beak (i did yesterday).
awareness makes ur life more richer, more colorful, simply because you start seeing more and more things. and u start growing.
how to get there, well i am not there yet, but to get there, you first need to make space in ur own head, you need to lessen the noise (which can simply be done by making sense of the noise, i you can acknowledge all the thoughts coming in ur head, if you can become aware of them, they will simply vanish). and thats where yoga helps, a lot.
i'll blog again about meditation, but what i do and suggest everyone to simply do is to just sit at a spot with eyes closed for about 30 mins straight. not move, not speak, do not open ur eyes whatever happens, just sit quietly. and do that every day for a week at least. at the end of the week, u'll feel different, and mostly better.


Couple of explanations
Diff between trance and spaced out - well trance ur not completely blocking the outside, but sieving it really. u let in what you want to accept. Spaced out is temporarily being lost in thought, and not really being able to pay attention to what is going around you. Trance is more like the the 'away' status on an IM client, as soon as a message arrives or as soon as you make a movement, it changes to green. Spaced out is as simple as sleep.
How does wearing black glasses block the world out, the world can't see my eyes, so they can't make out what i am thinking, gives me a sense of privacy.

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