Saturday, April 03, 2010


I remember watching 'I dream of Jeanie', not really sure what attracted me to it, but two things I remember from that sitcom was how Jeanie would blink her eyes and things would happen. And the other was the bottle she lived in, that purple colored long mouthed bottle which used to have a round sofa set and all comfort you can imagine.
We all live in our own Jeanie's bottles. We love to live in that protected environment, which is familiar and secure. Where we have built out  comfort zones, where we know where to get everything.
In my case, more then anything the firm I work for is a Jeanie's bottle for me. They give me everything I need, money is good, they ensure that my higher needs of getting respect and feeling powerful are satisfied. They spoil me with random comforts and perks. And not that the work is bad, work is good as well.
But then, I don't know what's happening outside the firm, my work world Is limited to that bottle. Because of the comforts I have, because of the security, you kind of forget your aspirations.
Frankly speaking, any kind of a commitment is like that bottle only, a commitment doesn't let you look beyond. You adjust your expectations to what that commitment can offer, lower you expectations. Only if there are actual problems do you wonder, is there something better outside the bottle?
There are two kinds of people, the ones who love the bottle, and the ones who love living up in the air. The second want to be those animals who roam around the earth, who visit different places, who meet different people, who see the beauty of every place, who fall in love to those places and people, but who don't want to be attached to anything. Who want to see everything, who are more about the breadth then the depth.
 I want to be the second,  and am fighting really hard not to end up the first.
Reminds me of george clooney movie, 'up in the air', the guy must have struggled really hard live that life. I can imagine the amount of opposition of that kind of life, because people want to be secure and attached and labeled. And when he started living that life, he must have been lonely, alone in his quest. Because  you have to be uber lucky to find someone who wants to go on an unending journey.
I think, that life is what everyone should live unless you have something or someone that makes it worth sticking around, makes it worth spending your life in that bottle, and mind you, without compromising, without lowering your expectations. Even after knowing everything, knowing what out there, you wanna stick around.
I have been flying around for 10 years now, and have become aware of it, and have started liking it for at least three years now. And the one who'd make me wanna stick around has come and...
PS - this is written 'Up in the air', literally, on a flight to home to fight another of those battles.
And I won't review 'Up in the air' but although I find something or the other in most movies I see, there are very few where I see my own reflection. 'Up in the air' was one…!
Take care
ank

15 comments:

  1. Who...and...??

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  2. Hah! Did it anyway matter at any point of time.. ;)

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  3. it did, my entire being revolved around it...

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  4. Funny...People do so many things for just that one thing... Y did'nt u do something if it mattered so much??

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  5. because i always thought it would happen naturally...it was so right, never realized that i might have to make it happen. when i did, the timing was always bad.

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  6. So..Now what?? He/she/it is married that u can't do anything..or is it that u r still chickening on it...sorry i am being too personal...but sometimes i feel very weird when ppl can't do what it means the most for them at the right time and at the right moment...

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  7. In continuation to previous comment... Hehehehe!! Naturally what...?? like u... without u expressing...thats like asking for "The Rain" on a sunny day!! Plz do not blame the time for ur actions!!
    Again Sorry...I just cant help saying things..and getting involved!!

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  8. Ho u deleted my He/She/It wala comment...so rude...

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  9. no i didn't baba...i published all three. don't know what happened.
    anyways retrieved it from my mail box

    The is what anonymous said
    So..Now what?? He/she/it is married that u can't do anything..or is it that u r still chickening on it...sorry i am being too personal...but sometimes i feel very weird when ppl can't do what it means the most for them at the right time and at the right moment... "

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  10. not chickening out...believe me i have seen all scenarios of my life, with / without / waiting and everything else. and yea i am not the kinds who gives everything for what he wants, don't have that in me. so thats my shortcoming. happy??!? :P

    anyways who the hell are you...and thanks for putting my personal life up on a blog i tried so hard to keep secret (it son my fb accounts, that another thing, but still) !!!

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  11. Hehehehe!!I am HEll..as u've put it!! :)
    just was a lil curious u see..u only made me curious...though..(through ur BLOGS..;) )so...itna gussa nahi hote!!

    Now...with/without wala part....sabke life mein hota hai....nothing so grt abt it!!

    and galat baat khud hi toh likha hai blogs mein abt ur "personal life"...and now blaming me for it..not fare...ab mat bolna Life is not fare...(pata nahi kyun i feel ur typical dialogs type of guy)

    waise u did'nt answer He/She/It got married????

    U know...i know a girl just like u...she 2 had the shortcomings what u possess...and I've been a good influence on her...she is happy and going to be a happy bride soon!!
    yaar i wish i could reveal myself..i know it might not matter much to u...but me a lil crazy types on these terms...and ever since i started reading ur blogs..i am reminded of my friend..I strongly believe that God/fate works in mysterious ways...its just that i feel i could help but u just didnt let me...

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  12. ah good atleast someone got curious...never had a post with comments in double digits...nahi nahi shaadi shudi nahi hui abhi tak kissi ki. reminds me of a dialogue from metro - you left him or she left you, love left us (or her in this case), ur right, i am a dialogues person..right side par itna saare to likha hai.
    ek naam nahi liya hai, i have just alluded to people, and only people who know me very well can make those associations. (if i have please don't start pointing it out here..:-) )
    congrats to ur friend, good for her, i am pretty happy with my life btw, everything is just an experience, might sound an excuse, but thats how i want to live my life.
    i like the clues u have sprinkled all over about ur identity, will resist the temptation of guessing though. good to have an anonymous person commenting on the blog.
    and about with / without, sabki life main hota hai, and feels like that only when its happening, once you move on u realize two things, can't live with / without was not actually true, and if you could live with / without, life would still not be that ideal, its the same thing, two ways of putting it.
    chalo later.

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  13. To all of that i can only reply the following-
    :) pause :) pause :)


    P.S.: Sorry...for the delayed reply..been busy lately...u see 13 is not a good number!!

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  14. ah good to see you back, my blog missed ya (no other comments in between by anyone you see..)
    busy with what, jhakofying in other peoples personal lives??!? :-P

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